naivE. pottEr fan. christian. bEdan. outgoing. ilocano. advEnturous. 19y/o. juvenile. accountancy studEnt.

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alam mo were not perfect, we cant actually achieve a perfect 0000-7 for palm-q all the time. maybe oo pero ano? 2? 3 times a month? no matter how hard we try, never tayong makakaperfect sa buong buhay natin. even paul had a hard time living an unsinful life as he wrote in  Romans 7:18 ”I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out.”

kung gaano tayo ka committed kay god ay doble or more pa ang gagawin ng devil para atakihin tayo. thats not to say na hindi tayo perfect kaya ok lang ang magka sin paminsan minsan.

second part of Romans 14:23 
…………… and everything that does not come from faith is sin.’

sa Galatians 5:17 naman ”For the sinful nature desires what is contrary to the Spirit, and the Spirit what is contrary to the sinful nature. They are in conflict with each other, so that you do not do what you want.”

faith is something na pleasing kay God and so sin is the other way around. we cannot have faith and sin at the same time. at the same time ok? pwedeng tayong maging faithful today at sinful bukas pero we can never be faithful at sinful nang sabay! 

parang sa 4 most important truths lang “we need to decide to live for God”. we are Gods temple. God dwells in us pero how can He dwell in us if sin dwells in us?

so how do we stop sinning? simply do what God wants us to do! so what does God wants us to do? read the bible! easier said than done di ba? pero were are given a choice kasi. same with adam and eve. nagpadala sila sa temptation ayan tuloy…etong choice na to determines who we choose to follow and obey.

so sinong gusto mong i-follow? (hindi sa twitter) 


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Bday Ni mother (Taken with Instagram at Gumbo)

Bday Ni mother (Taken with Instagram at Gumbo)

Kids camp (Taken with Instagram at Rizal Recreation Center)

Kids camp (Taken with Instagram at Rizal Recreation Center)

Taken with instagram

Taken with instagram

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just a random thought…

our discipler would often tell us… (not vebatim) “saka na ang gf pag ready na kayo”, “ang babata nyo pa para dyan!”, “bakit may maitutulong ba yan sa spiritual growth nyo?”, “kung magkaka gf kayo dapat sure na kayo na sya na nga till the end”.

as far as im concerned, gusto kong magka girlfriend kasi i want to feel loved. you might be saying, hindi pa ba enough ang pagmamahal na binibigay sa akin ng discipler ko or ng dgroup ko or ng family or ng friends ko? what if sabihin kong oo? 

you know why i seldom post samting on facebook? kasi feeling ko wala namang maglalike ng post ko eh. haha, nakakatawang gawing basis ang dami ng likes sa popularity or ng dami ng taong nagmamahal sayo. well, may likes at comment naman mga post ko but not as much as my friends. heto nanaman ako- envious much! 

the other day i posted our pictures from retreat.  kasama sa pictures ang picture ni patrick getting baptised. may naglike agad, it was pearl pero ang unang una nyang nilike ay ang picture ni patrick so i was like “wow photo album ko ito pero picture lang talaga nya ung nilike mo?” and so nilike din nya ung iba ko pang pics halfheartedly. patrick saw his picture and tagged himself. the next day na nag log ako, ang daming notifs!!! pero lahat ng yon hindi akin… lahat ng yon kay patrick…

oh parang may nabasag? naririnig mo ba yon? …………ay puso ko lang pala… shattering…ouch

how about agape? the highest form of love- Gods love. ……………..

in the begining God created the heavens and the earth, bakit? kasi mahal nya tayo. gustong i express ni God ang pagmamahal na iyon kaya nagmaterialize ito through the form of heaven and earth and humans and everything around us. he even have great plan for us as He declared in jeremiah 29:11  For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

lahat tayo ay makasalanan Romans 3:23 says “All have sinned and fall short of the glory of God”. this sin separated us from God and so we cannot experience his love and great plan for our life.

pero dahil nga mahal nya tayo hindi nya tayo pibayaan. he wants us to spend eternity with him. imagine pinadala nya si Christ sa mundo as a sacrifice to give us salvation! all you have to do is accept and believe! ganon lang kadali iyon! john 3:16 says for God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten son that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life.

when we receive Him we whould experince a different kind or change…now God is in the process of changing you to the way he wants you to be. imagine youre a clay from the earth youre lifted up… before the potter molds you bubugbugin ka muna nya. dadagdagan ng konting tubig or buhangin. titimplahim sa tamang consistency. sa una masakit yon hindi ba? pero once youre molded the way the potter has planned hindi ba ang ganda? and that potter is God. He is the great potter!!! 

so… im not saying na hindi pa enough ang love ni God sa buhay ko. its just that, as a christian, youd expect more from God. you feel na mas blessed ka kesa sa mga tao sa paligid mo na everything would go well as planned kasi alam mong nandyan si God lagi sa tabi mo….

"introvert pero seeks attention"

- wrong combination. tsk tsk tsk. cant be good

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here we go again. everytime nagpopost ako, puro problema na lang. you know what i hate? kasasabi ko lang na ayoko ng attention pero ayoko naman ng nababalewala. na parang they dont really care. alam mo kung bakit lagi na lang akong nagsasacrifice? kasi hindi naman ako kawalan eh. 

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matthew 28:20  Establish your foundation not on ephemeral emotions but on the authority of the written Word. He promised never to leave us 

emotions can be deceiving noh? if you feel like hindi ka mahal ni God dahil nagka leche leche ang buhay mo. hmp. wala yan. kung feeling mo hindi ka na love ng mahal mo, she just wants more attention! pero what if kung feeling mo gutom ka? or najejebs or masakit ang ulo, deceiving pa rin ba un?

ngayon, im feeling down. nanaman? haha feeling down, rejected, outcast.so weak estong. so sensitive. ang dami kong issues with my dgroup. problem lang pala kasi ako lang ang affected at involve. i believe well established na ang relationship ko kay God thanks to kuya james, pero sa dgroup ko… uhmm…. i dont think so. maraming beses ko nang naisipang umalis sa dgroup. masaya pero hindi ako at ease hindi ako confortable. nakakasakal. nakakapresure. 

jelousy…

seloso pala ako? kanina ko lang narealize. youngest kasi ako sa famili kaya nasanay ako. i usually get everything that i ask for. kahit hindi ko gusto or didnt ask for it, i get it still. pag dating sa dgroup, im not asking for attention i dont want it anyway. introvert ako kaya ayoko din ng attention. ang gusto ko lang equality! 

so maniniwala ba ako sa feelings ko or not? what is God trying to tell me? what does He want me to learn? ewan ko ulit. haha. 

so ngayon, i need a break from my dgroup. no dgroup meetings muna.

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if God is all powerful and knowing as described in rev 19:6 and that He is a God of love why then does He have to let His people suffer?

sobrang hirap kami sa pera. every now and then nakakatanggap kami ng letter from the bank’s lawyer saying na ilang buwan na kaming hindi nakakapagbayad ng amortization ng bahay. mayat maya tatawag ulit ang bangko saying na kailangan na rin namin bayaran ang amortization ng kotse. maya maya tatawag nanaman saying na expired na ang insurance ng kotse. Almost every week dumadating ang credit card bills. Every month notice of disconnection naman ng kuryente at tubig. every year problema ang tuition, every two months dumadating ang midterms at finals. installment basis na nga hindi pa rin namin kaya. 

bakit ko ba pinoproblema ang mga bagay na to? hindi ko responsibility na pagaralin ang sarili ko, na pakainin ako  at mag bayad ng amortization ng bahay at kotse. pero pakiramdam ko pasan ko ang daigdig! ang magaral lang ang tanging maitutulong ko, to make them feel na worth it ang every centavo na ginagastos nila sa akin. pero bakit pati ba naman yon hindi ko pa maibigay?

ok lets make things clear, hindi po ako bumagsak ulit ah and i cant afford to fail anymore. 

kuya james, remember nung sinabi kong nagdrop ako ng subject? sorry, pero i havent been fully accountable. i was caught cheating. ayoko nang paginitan pa ko ng prof ko so i resorted to dropping it instead. i cheated simply because ayokong bumagsak. ayokong bumagsak kasi hindi naming afford na bumagsak ako. to fail means additional units for next sem at additional units is dagdag bayad sa tuition nanaman! ang mahal ng tuition sa beda you know. maybe youre saying “bakit di ka magaral ng mabuti?!” i did! pero……. basta i did!

i remember working sa restaurant ni ate. 3000 lang sweldo ko. mahirap din pero…kinaya ko. nagtrabaho din ako sa internet shop namin, tagabantay lang pero graveyard swift ako. 11pm to 7am. 6000 a month. now im selling shirts, mas malaki ang income pero ang hirap magbenta. now start na ng ojt hindi ko alam kung magkano ang matatanggap ko allowance nga lang yon eh. pero hoping na it would somehow lift us up from this burden

so why does God let all these things-burdens, struggles, happen not just to me but to everyone. syempre one way or another naranasan natin to. maybe of different  intensity or situation pero we must have experienced it somehow or at some point in our life. its inevitable noh!

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While making tambay in fullybooked Rockwell….(welll im sosyal kasi. Ahaha.) I stumbled on this book at hindi ko alam ang title. anyway the author says„ “(whenever we are in a situation) God doesn’t just offer us advice. He offers us companionship. He doesn’t promise we wont face hardship but he does promise he’ll walk with us through hardship” also “there is a great deal about this i(we) don’t understand”

Funny how the the last Sunday worship service was also something related. Sabi ni pastor peter treat all these struggles as a blessing daw- To see it Gods way, Gods direction, gods perspective. Ironic no? panong magiging blessing ang problem eh puro paghihirap ang idinudulot nun sa buhay natin? Well yes these struggles, problems, or whatever which we call THORNS may cause us pain but if you are to look at it Gods perspective it could somehow be a protection or something beneficial.

 

2 Corinthians 12:7-10: 7 says Because of the surpassing greatness of the revelations, for this reason, to keep me from exalting myself, there was given me a thorn in the flesh, a messenger of Satan to [a]torment me—to keep me from exalting myself! 8 Concerning this I implored the Lord three times that it might leave me. 9 And He has said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness.” Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast [b]about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me. 10Therefore I am well content with weaknesses, with [c]insults, with distresses, with persecutions, with difficulties, for Christ’s sake; for when I am weak, then I am strong.

 

In the passage, paul was attacked by people but rather being discouraged he responded by first changing his perspective. 

 

CCF’S 4Ws says Paul understood the danger of pride (Prov. 16:18). It takes a humble man to admit that the greatest danger of a leader is spiritual pride. Proud people will never admit that they are proud. Thorns can serve as a reminder for us to remainhumble. The thorns in our life can change us either to become better or bitter. We either become soft or hard depending on how we process the thorns of life. When we allow the Spirit of God to work in our life, our thorns can make us gentle, humble and faithful.

 

These thorns can also make us prayerful, kasi when we are in a situation that is outside our will the first thing we do is seek guidance or assistance or advice or comfort that only God could give. This then enables us to become more prayerful and thankful to God.

 

So uulitin ko, see it in gods perspective. Kasi if you do, it will strengthen your faith in God.. The author says ulit “deeply rooted beliefs-grounded in scripture-will allow you to persevere and hold on the solid rock of gods truth.” Mas nagiging intimate tayo sa kanya  A thorn can be a gift that we can thank God for. It changes our attitude.

By God’s promise, Paul’s pains turned into gladness, contentment and thanksgiving for the sake of Christ (v.9-10). The thorns in our life can change us either to become better or bitter. We either become soft or hard depending on how we process the thorns of life. When we allow the Spirit of God to work in our life, our thorns can make us gentle, humble and faithful.

 

 

 (oh well, its 11:34 na at maaga pa akong gigising for orientation. excited at kinakabahan at the same time. bless me o Lord.)

 

 

"you are a dream that will never come true. but if its dreaming that i can be with you, ill dream until either you come true or til the sky stops turning blue."

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(sorry just now. sa main building to if im not mistaken)